Month: May 2016

The Heart of It 

I love how before you type it says “share your story here…” As if it were that easy. That got me thinking about my story, other people’s stories and how everyone has something to say. No matter how much someone talks or how shy someone is, everyone has a story. It’s when you get to the heart of the story is when you get to really know someone. But what is the heart of the story? Is it when something traumatic happened or when there’s been a transformative event? I like hearing the meat of it, the bulk, the creme de la creme. Maybe there isn’t a heart of the story. Maybe, the whole story is the heart and not a specific part. Who really knows. I would love to hear your guys’s stories, no matter how long or short, 5 worded or 50 worded.

Yours Truly,

Stigmasaywhat

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Defining Words

It’s been a while since I’ve posted. I’m trying to find the balance between not letting my mental illness consume my life but still acknowledging it and talking about mental health. As I try and find out who I am without having the labels define me, I’ve noticed that I have no idea who I am. Well, I have some idea and would love to learn more. It’s a scary territory, to see yourself without having the comfort of a label to define you. It makes me feel so vulnerable and eager and scared and excited.

Everyday I need to remind myself that I am not my mental illness and it doesn’t define who I am. I am a person who has interests, hobbies, likes, dislikes and so much more. I hope that you have the courage to remind yourself of this as well.

Yours Truly,

Stigmasaywhat

A Special Woman

I have encountered a very special woman to me, about a year ago. She suffered from schizophrenia, which was very evident. When she would have her good days, she was able to function like the rest of us. When she had her bad days, nothing would even register in her mind. It’s been a year and I still think about her off and on. How a sweet middle aged woman has such a disease that turns her mind around without her control. We bonded and had light conversations. But the next day when I saw she wasn’t in a good place, I was heartbroken. Why was she born with this? Why did it have to be her? These are questions that cannot and will not be answered. Honouring mental health month I would like to dedicate this post to her. She won’t see this, but she has left a mark in my heart. I hope you have the courage to honour someone as well.

Yours Truly,

Stigmasaywhat

Mental Health Awareness Month

Alright friends, it’s May which means it’s mental health awareness month. I’ve been going on Twitter and there are amazing tweets on ending the stigma. Bravo to everyone. And of course there were the few tweets against antidepressants that still annoyed me but I decided to look past them:). I still cannot believe that in this day in age this world is still so stigmatized against mental illness. I’ve been fortunate enough to come into contact with people of various mental disorders and I cannot tell you enough how much they have touched my soul. I can’t even think about it without getting teary eyed. It makes me hurt on the inside seeing people judge others who have a mental illness. We really are all just humans trying to figure out life, some with more hardships than others which are out of our control. So let’s raise awareness about mental health, because it needs to be talked about.

Yours Truly,

Stigmasaywhat

Binge Eating (please don’t read if this is a trigger)

Not only was I blessed with self harming behaviour, but what else was I created with? Binge eating! O what fun it’s been. All kidding aside, it’s the hardest thing to quit. I’m in therapy for it but I’m finding it just as nasty as self harming. To top it off, when I binge eat I feel like shit and want to take it out on myself by self harming. So it’s a double whammy. Do any of you have tips on how to regulate your eating? I know it’s good to have things in moderation but when that oreo reaches my mouth I’m ready for the whole bag and another. Please share any advice:)

Yours Truly,

Stigmasaywhat