Dear Diary

I never realized this but looking back at my previous posts, this blog is almost like a diary for me. Except i have people reading it…. It’s actually quite amazing how much a person can change in their lifetime and what different events can happen. A little anxiety provoking, but nonetheless also very exciting. I just really want to help someone. I know what a shit hole mental illness can be and feel like, so I’m writing my experiences to say that you’re not alone. And there are millions of us just like you. Some like to keep it quieter than others, but that doesn’t mean it doesn’t exist. Break the stigma.

Yours Truly,

Stigmasaywhat

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Choices

It’s been a while since I’ve been here. Things have been good, and I mean really good. Of course I have my shitty days and shitty moods still, but who doesn’t? I’ve realized that as much as mental illness isn’t your choice to have, you still have the choice of which direction your life is going. Despite it all, you can still choose to do something great with yourself. It doesn’t have to be great for me, great for your friend, great for your mentor, it just has to be great for you.

I’ve worked my ass off trying to build a life not based on any labels I’ve been given. And you know what? It feels real good. I challenge you to do something for yourself that you’ve always wanted to do. Big or small, who cares. It’s the little things that matter.

Yours Truly,

Stigmasaywhat

 

The Depression is Calling…

I’m depressed again and I don’t know why. Somehow when this happens, I feel the need to find a significant other. Maybe I think that it will help with my depression or maybe I just need that close connection. I feel like something is missing in my life. I don’t know whether it’s the BPD or if I really am lacking something.

Yours Truly,

Stigmasaywhat

Pop the pill?

Antidepressants. Antipsychotics. Whatever medication you are on, I’m sure it wasn’t easy making the decision to start taking it. There’s so many people out there that say there are alternative ways to heal that don’t involve drugs. I am not a drug pusher by any means and am NOT telling anyone what to do, but sometimes you do need the medication to help your quality of life. I remember this was an ongoing debate with those around me and within myself, whether to start them or not. In my case, they are partly what’s keeping me alive, so I guess you can say that I am happy with my choice. Others, are happy that they didn’t go on medication and that they healed through other ways. This can be a sensitive subject but I would like to know was it as hard a decision for you to go on meds like it was for me? And trust me when I say this, it took over a dozen tries to find the right combo for me and I’m still a work in progress. So how do all of you deal with the rollercoaster of medication?

Yours Truly,

Stigmasaywhat