Tag: health

The Depression is Calling…

I’m depressed again and I don’t know why. Somehow when this happens, I feel the need to find a significant other. Maybe I think that it will help with my depression or maybe I just need that close connection. I feel like something is missing in my life. I don’t know whether it’s the BPD or if I really am lacking something.

Yours Truly,

Stigmasaywhat

Defining Words

It’s been a while since I’ve posted. I’m trying to find the balance between not letting my mental illness consume my life but still acknowledging it and talking about mental health. As I try and find out who I am without having the labels define me, I’ve noticed that I have no idea who I am. Well, I have some idea and would love to learn more. It’s a scary territory, to see yourself without having the comfort of a label to define you. It makes me feel so vulnerable and eager and scared and excited.

Everyday I need to remind myself that I am not my mental illness and it doesn’t define who I am. I am a person who has interests, hobbies, likes, dislikes and so much more. I hope that you have the courage to remind yourself of this as well.

Yours Truly,

Stigmasaywhat

Survivor?

People like to think that we are survivors of mental illness. But are we really survivors? To me, surviving something means that whatever it was is over with. Does mental illness really stop or do we just learn to live with it? I don’t think of myself as a survivor. I’m just living with a mental illness. I’m just being. If calling yourself a survivor is what gives you strength than I am all for it. But I am curious…would you call yourself a survivor or are you just living with it?

Yours Truly,

Stigmasaywhat

No more mental illness?

What if we lived in a world with no mental illness? How would we know our own strength? They say try to think of the positives in a situation so that is how I’m going about mental illness. Without it, we wouldn’t know who the fighters and warriors are in life. We wouldn’t appreciate things the same way when they go right, because when they do, how much more grateful are you? I’m not one to think that everything happens for a reason, but I do believe that you have the choice to accept things for what they are, and still move forward. Mental illness makes us warriors. It makes us stronger than ever. It sometimes hardens us but it also makes us vulnerable and open to feeling new things. Without it, we would be totally different people. I don’t think the same kind of strength would be inside us. That strength to fight and survive and to live.

Yours Truly,

Stigmasaywhat

Career #286

Finding a career that you love is incredibly hard. Finding a career that you love with a mental illness I think is incredibly harder. If there’s something you enjoy you generally go into that professsion. I find that with a mental illness if you like something one day you might hate it the other, and you don’t know if you really don’t enjoy it or if it’s the mental illness talking. I have switched my major so many times, but who really knows if I hated them because I was in a rut of hating the world, or if I really didn’t enjoy them.

People say that you should find your passion and everything will work out. I am on the fence about that. I took something that I love and transformed it into a career. Don’t get me wrong, I am happy I did this but when you take a passion and apply it to work, don’t you think it takes the joy and pleasure out of it? It is so incredibly hard to know what we are meant to be and do in life. Sometimes, we just won’t figure it out, and that’s ok, because our career doesn’t always have to be our identity. There are so many aspects each person offers that knowing who you are doesn’t have to be about what job or career you are in. So I ask, has a mental illness made you question your career choice? How did it work out for you if you took a passion and made it into a career?

Yours Truly,

Stigmasaywhat